Revealing the Well of Living Waters Within

By the natural spring near Bat Ayin

Finally the blessed rain is here. The thirsty greens lift their heads to suck in the nourishing waters. Water is a metaphor for Torah.[1] The source of the waters is below the surface of the earth. Likewise, the truth of the Torah is buried beyond the surface reading of misinterpretation. Searching for truth is like digging wells. It is hard work, and it takes a lot of persistence. Just as Yitzchak re-dug the wells of Avraham his father, we need to dig deeply into the core of our souls for the living waters. Removing the blocks of falsehood empowers us to grasp the kernels of truth. 

In our psyche, there are spiritual, emotional and physical blocks, which we must remove in order to reconnect with the truth we knew before we were born. I have designed this meditation to remove the blocks in the way, and facilitate connection with the Source of Living Waters within.

With Blessings of the Torah and the Land
Chana Bracha Siegelbaum 

 Read “The “Esavs” and the “Ya’acovs” of Today” – Rebbetzin’s commentary to Haftorat Toldot

Parasha Meditation Toldot
Bereishit 25:19-28:9

Introduction:
Removing the veils of the Physical World
In this week’s parasha Yitzchak re-digs the ancestral wells in search of water.

“Yitzchak dug again the wells of water, which they had dug in the days of Avraham his father; for the Pelishtim had stopped them up after the death of Avraham. And he called the names after the names by which his father had called them.”[2] 

The spiritual work of Yitzchak was to dig wells. The purpose of this work is to reveal the living waters, which exist under the ground, and to raise it up. It is not the purpose to make waters flow into the wells from another source; but only to reveal the living waters, which is already found within the wells themselves. For in truth, these wells retain by themselves the living waters. Yet they are covered up with dirt, pebbles and mud. When one removes these blockages, the living water is revealed. This work teaches us about Yitzchak’s spiritual work – To remove all the veils of the physical world, and transform it into a vessel for Divinity – to raise it up from below to above. Like the living waters themselves, which rise up from below.[3]

Digging Wells & Raising Sparks to live in Perfect Peace in the Land

“Yitzchak’s servants dug in the valley, and found there a well of living water. And the herdsmen of Gerar strove with Yitzchak’s herdsmen, saying, ‘the water is ours’: He called the name of the well Esek; because they strove with him. And they dug another well, and strove also over that: and he called its name Sitna. He removed from there, and dug another well; which they did not strive over: and he called its name Rechovot; and he said, ‘for now Hashem has made room for us, and we shall be fruitful in the land.’”[4]

Yitzchak had to deal with the negative forces that attempted to prevent his holy work of digging the wells. Although the herdsmen of Avimelech chased Yitzchak’s herdsmen away and shut up the wells, he was not discouraged, but continued to dig the wells, until he reached “Rechovot” – “For now the Hashem has made room for us, and we shall be fruitful in the land.”[5] He was finally successful in separating and raising the sparks from their shells in order to live in perfect peace in the Holy Land.

Digging through Dirt, Pebbles & Mud to Reconnect with our Source
Yitzchak was going through contention and conflict, in order to re-dig the wells of Avraham – his spiritual heritage. We, likewise, are going through much turmoil, and many challenges, in order to reconnect with our source. We must dig deeply through dirt, pebbles and mud, and remove all of the blockages that block us from returning to the well of our mothers and fathers – “the well of living waters.” The way to our own source is paved with difficulties, but we cannot just take the easy way out and dig new wells, because only the wells of Avraham will reveal the true “living waters” for us. This is why it is so important to choose only a Mitzvah-observant spiritual healer and teacher of Jewish meditation – someone who drinks from the wells of Avraham – rather than from wells from “the other side,” which may possibly bring healing. However, healing from impure wells, which are not from the well of holiness, will not elevate the Jewish Neshama (soul).

Rediscovering our Truth Before we were Born
In the work of digging wells, we relearn something, which was always part of our Neshama – The truth, which has been taught to us even before we were born, but buried deeply within our being. The well buried within us, is concealed by many layers of blockages. It could be covered up by secular upbringing, the Western culture and our own inclination to separate ourselves from G-d.

Removing the Blocks to Reconnect with Divine Light
There are spiritual blocks such as negative energy, lack of emunah (faith) and lack of tefilah (prayer). Emotional blocks include fear, trauma, guilt and anger, whereas physical blocks could be caused by pain, injury, shock and even lack of certain vitamins. In Emunahealing and meditation we can dig through the dirt, pebbles and mud of all of these blockages in order to reconnect with Hashem’s light within us reflected in “the well of living waters.”

Meditation:
Sit comfortably in your chair, close your eyes, and take several deep breaths. Continue to breathe deeply, until you feel completely relaxed in all of the limbs of your body.

1. After a minute or two of relaxed breathing, imagine the word בְּאֵר – Be’er (well). Inhale as you visualize בְּ – Be, exhale as you visualize אֵר – er. Repeat this four times.

2. Now imagine that you inhale the living waters into your head, and exhale all the blocks of dirt, pebbles and mud from your head. Repeat this several times, allowing the cleansing waters to enter your forehead, eyebrows, eyes, nose, ears, mouth, chin, cheeks and the back of your head, as you inhale, while the dirt, pebbles and mud are washed away from all these parts of your head when your exhale.

3. Imagine how you wash away negative energy, lack of emunah (faith), and lack of i (prayer). Visualize how the well-water opens your spiritual energy fields and recharges your head with emunah, unity and clarity.

4. Allow the waters to cascade down your shoulders and arms and then focus on inhaling living waters to your heart, and exhaling all the dirt, pebbles and mud of your fears, pains, angers, traumas and childhood injuries from your heart.

5. Visualize how the well-water opens your emotional energy fields, and recharges your heart with love acceptance and humility.

6. Allow the waters to cleanse the right chamber, then the left chamber of your heart, and all of the blood-vessels. Allow the waters of the well to enter your bloodstream and purify it.

7. Now visualize your liver on your right side below your ribcage. Imagine the well-water entering your liver, and purifying it from the toxins of your injuries, shocks and unhealthy eating.

8. Visualize how the waters of the well opens your physical energy fields, and recharges your liver with renewed energy, commitment to refining your lifestyle.

9. Allow the well of the living waters to rush through your entire being, and remove all the blocks that block you from being in touch with Hashem within.

10. Repeat once again imagining the word בְּאֵר – Be’er (well). Inhale as you visualize בְּ – Be, exhale as you visualize אֵר – er. Repeat this four additional times.

11. Let your breath to flow naturally, as you allow yourself to just be. Feel how cleansed you have become from your spiritual, emotional and physical blocks. Now you can feel Hashem’s light emanating and illuminating your entire being. Take a few concluding breaths as you experience the presence of Hashem within you – your own “Well of Living Waters.”

Notes:
The word “B’erot” means wells. Midreshet B’erot Bat Ayin is named after the wells in the Torah. Here, we do the work of re-digging the wells of our mothers. We do a lot of digging at B’erot, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Through our spiritual digging – “soul- gym” we expand our souls and open their never ending springs. Through gardening and creativity we allow the wells of Torah to flow outwards and be expressed in various garments. Our yearning to express ourselves through dance, drama, painting and song is being reclaimed, as vehicles to allow our personal expressions of the waters of the living well – our holy Torah. Drawing out the well and allowing its water to flow outwardly, causes the inner spring to be opened even more. Like a nursing mother, the more the baby sucks to extract the milk, the more milk is produced within her breasts. By re-digging the wells, and allowing them to be expressed through the garments of our creativity, we receive the ability to bring home the hidden sparks, even from the furthest exile. Students from the four corners of the earth, descendants of Anusim (crypto-Jews), Keifeng Jews, B’nei Menashe, as well as young women emerging from the Western exile keep knocking on our doors. Midreshet B’erot Bat Ayin is a learning environment for women who seek to reconnect with their own inner source, Hashem within, and express their personal wellsprings in all the colorful language of their souls.

[1] Babylonian Talmud, Baba Kama 82a.
[2] Bereishit 26:18.
[3] Rabbi Menachem Mendel Shneerson (The last Lubawitzcher Rabbi), commentary on the Torah, Parashat Vayera.
[4] Bereishit 26:19-22.
[5] Bereishit 26:22.